I'm going to be honest

I am going through a bit of a rough spot right now. Actually I've been in this rough spot for quite a while now. I've hit a valley in my life and I feel as though I'm stuck. I've tried all that I can now to get out of it. Nothing seems to work. I feel abandoned, cold, crushed and scared. I'm frustrated and at the brink of giving up.

Last year I was at the top of a mountain. Life couldn't have been better. Then at the beginning of this summer I lost my bearings and abruptly started to fall off my mountain. I have been rolling down ever since. About a month or so ago I hit rock bottom. I hit a rough valley in my life. One that seems to never end. I can't even begin to explain how hard these past few months have been.

However yesterday I regained something that I thought I lost. Hope.

I know that I am in this valley for a reason and despite how much I may feel abandoned, God is still with me. He will never leave me. Even it I can't feel His presence He is there. I just need the strength to fight through this. The strength to persevere. The strength not to give up. He is on my side.



Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not dissapoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given to us.
Romans 5:3-5